My Message to Friends of Bill and Bob Facebook Group

It seems there is some confusion to my motives among some members of our group. I want to clarify. I also invite writers to share their experience, strength, and hope by sending me your articles to put into print. Join the group here https://www.facebook.com/groups/2247449301/

Care and fear are two different things. I care about all your opinions and beliefs. I care about my reputation and what you think of me. This makes me human not weak. Can I control it? Of course not. Can I make you like me or change your opinions? No only you can do that but I can shed light on my own motives.

My name is Lori, I am a recovered alcoholic.

I got sober by several methods including AA/rehab/therapy/white light exp./steps/spiritual seeking/and fellowship. I advocate all of these tools including church. As for AA if you go to RFH you will see step work experience and articles all over the website. I believe in living the steps not in dependency on AA after years and years of step work and learning. The 12 steps and fellowship are AA recovery. Meetings are gravy they are not the program of Alcoholics Anonymous as it’s outlined in the Big Book. However meetings are a helpful tool in many ways.

Fellowship is a vital component of recovery as I well know. I am not anti AA but I am anti AA dogma that isn’t in the Big book yet is hailed in AA across U.S. If you love the little titbits of false beliefs called AA rhetoric that have worked themselves into many people’s belief system that are no where in the Big Book or 12×12 and even refuted by our literature, you won’t like my writing. If you love status quos and misconceptions, you won’t like my writing.

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October 23, 2017

Why Addiction?

My name is Laura Edgar. I got sober in 2006 and have stayed sober in AA and with therapy and spirituality for 7 years then I quit going to meetings. That was about five years ago, I am still sober presently and have nearly 12 years with very few meetings in the last five years. Do I recommends this? No. Do I believe you can do the same? Absolutely and here is how.

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October 1, 2017

Addiction Cunning & Baffling Indeed

THE BAFFLING PART OF ADDICTION EXPLAINED. How does an emotional pain morph into spiritual blindness and darkness that would cause a man to self destruct?
Clearing up the EMOTIONAL wreckage of the past makes us less vulnerable to actions of fear and hurt toward self and others. Confessing our greatest fear(s) DOES render them powerless over us. In this sense we ARE as sick as our secrets. Shame is the leverage of darkness. Yet “shame” is something humans seldom want to explore within themselves to irrigate it with light. Why?

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September 28, 2017

AA Juggernaut #2

Please try to apply this to yourself or it won’t do you any good. Open your mind to free your identity.

Prayer and step three are a prerequisite to all recovery steps and exercises for guidance and direction, for revelation, and epiphany, for self awareness and cutting through the ego .

AA status quos are the AA Juggernauts that can kill you. We must allow ourselves to become vulnerable emotionally if we are going to heal. We must not allow our intellect to stifle what our heart needs to say. The AA Juggernaut is to follow socially acceptable rules during our recovery process. By this we would cover up our heart and hide it from real recovery.

My recovery from addiction in short has been about

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August 15, 2017

Humanities Fall

And I thought it was just the addicts cross to bear.

August 13, 2017

Why Dale K Re-wrote The First 164 Pages of The Big Book

Why on Earth did Dale K think he had the right to change our treasured Big Book?

Some background info. Who is AAAgnostica and Tom B?

Read original aaagnostica article here

The AAAgnostica site advocates the book “Secular Sobriety” by Dale K which is a rewrite of the Alcoholics Anonymous Big Book text. aaagnostica.org and writer Tom B. are an open minded, free-thinking organization geared toward alcoholics Anonymous. They impress on us the fundamentals of a godless recovery for those who need it. (Tom B always uses a small “g”) The website’s “about” page states this: “When we use the word “agnostic” in relation to AA – or words like “atheist” or “freethinker” – we are simply referring to the specific wisdom of groups and individuals within the fellowship who understand that belief in a “God” (of any understanding) is not a necessary part of recovery from alcoholism. They advocate freedom of choice where religion and spirituality are concerned and admonish religious dogma and social prejudice that lives in the rooms of AA. Here is their email if you wish to contact them. Thomas B writes most of the articles on the site and wrote one promoting the book “Secular Sobriety”.

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July 12, 2017

A Note to my Alcoholics Anonymous Family

Alcoholics Anonymous Family,

There is so much in this world to fear. The more research I do on the condition of the Earth, food, pollution, radiation, food additives, toxins, malnutrition due to processed foods the more I am learning about THE BIGGEST PROBLEMS in 2017. So I regroup & choose faith and hope to kwell the horrible uncertainties of the future. My HP has got my back. And I know the tools that bring me back to the safety of “NOW”. Writing is one of my tools. So with all the dangers around me I moved myself on to the solutions just like my favorite AA cliche’ states; “Out of the problem into the solution”. And my 2nd fav. “Move a muscle change a thought”. 3rd “the program works”.

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July 2, 2017

Dr. Bob’s Last Major Talk

Click here to read Dr. Bob’s Last Major Talk

Commentary of controversy:

Dr. Bob exhibits a degree of insecurity about staying sober in the essay below. Dr. Bob mentions that when he thinks about having a drink (at 13 years sober) he knows what to do, he goes to see the boys in detox.

Yes an ego based sense of security in recovery can be a dangerous road to relapse no matter how long we have been sober. Sobriety time is not what keeps us sober. But there is a thing called healthy security based and grounded in 12 step work, a relationship with God and the knowledge the program works.

Seems to me there are quite a few addicts who don’t know the difference between ego false pride the dangerous kind and healthy self confidence. Seems some addicts think they have to exhibit false humility to stay sober. We in AA routinely socially punch holes in our overall worth in spite of our child of God status.

So what? If I finally learn/build some self esteem from doing the 12 step work I now need to negate it with false humility? If we know the program works, and we have a choice then why would our sobriety be built on thin ice? And why would me announcing my thin ice foundation be anything more than a public exhibit of false humility.

Typical statements by people with years sober: “I am no more secure than someone who just walked in AA and knows absolutely nothing about staying sober”, or “I am an arms length from the next drink just like the gutter drunk who doesn’t know the 12 steps”. When does years of sobriety and knowledge become self confidence? Seriously it’s not insecurity or fear that keeps us sober. It’s not downgrading our recovery that keeps us sober.

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July 1, 2017

Watch What You Say Online The Governments have a List of Trigger Words

They have a list of trigger words and the computers to search for them. Big brother can scan the posts and comments of every social media site online. What in the hell are they really looking for? This doesn’t seem to be the tactics of a freedom advocating government. Does free speech still exist?

Watch this Urgent Video. Doing a step eleven can be a survival tool.

See all the entire list of words you need to avoid online just to feel safe from wrongful attention by some possible over-zealous men in black suites driving black SUV’s.

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2150281/REVEALED-Hundreds-words-avoid-using-online-dont-want-government-spying-you.html Oh boy! They might get bored if they follow my web surfing. Or they will learn to eat organic.

Meditation article

June 18, 2017

The Heart of a Maneater the “Bad Little Girl”!

THE HEART OF A MANEATER. By Laura Edgar

By the dime store psychologist. If you came from FB Friends of Bill and Bob scroll past videos to continue reading. I copied that post starting at “Introducing the Maneater” below.

Low self image is at he core of most active addicts hearts. The ego picks up where a broken identity drops the ball.

Did the Primary teaching voice of your formative years often sound like this? (granted most people don’t remember until they spend years in therapy, meditation, and prayer coupled with self-awareness exercises.)

“You’re a Bad little girl/boy! How could you do such a thing, again? Don’t do that, don’t act like that, don’t be like that and don’t feel like that! You’re wrong, wrong, wrong everything that comes from your little heart is wrong”. And then here’s the worst quote of all folks: “You shouldn’t FEEL that way! Your feelings are wrong! Your ideas are stupid and you should be ashamed of yourself. Don’t cry! Cry baby! That’s nothing to cry about! That’s nothing to be afraid of! Chicken shit…scaredy cat..and worse. We are programmed to hide our fears, weaknesses, and hearts truths.

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