Category: Recovery and healing

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Answers to quiz “Do you know your Big Book?”

Answers to A.A. quiz
Correct Answers

1  We should be armed with…facts about ourselves
2.   What kind of disease?  A spiritual disease
3.   What kind of list?  A list of our fears
4. Bills reason for our being in the world?  To play the role God assigns.
5.  Responsibility pledge controversy?  2& 3 not in big book and implies debt to AA

6. While working with others avoid:  Argument and fault finding-
7.   What do we carry every day according to Bill W.?  Carry the vision of God’s will into all our activities.
8. What thought should be with us constantly?  How can I best serve thee and thy will be done.
9.   Bill labels us?  Undisciplined-
10. Bill W.’s labels for alcoholics   All of the above, below:

a. Dr. Jekyll Mr. Hyde
b. Incredibly dishonest and selfish
c. In respect to liquor Dangerously anti-social
d. Insanely drunk
11.A careless or inconsiderate remark:  Will raise the devil
12 Relationship question:   all of the above is correct

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Addiction is no Longer “Baffling” to me and many others

What is “The Cure” and how Long Does it Take?

One -reprogramming of behaviors by AA or NA meetings or a similar habitual fellowship.  Two-And you need healing from emotional trauma.  Trauma have not yet even identified, much less addressed.  Three-Spiritual help from God to face one’s past one step at a time.  Watch Dr. Gabor Mate’ vids.

Below I explain these two tasks in a general way.  It takes 7 years of intense work to reprogram behaviors.  But without the emotional trauma work & the spiritual enlightenment & overhaul, you will need meetings the rest of your life.

The culprits are fear, shame, hurt, false pride, self deception, the inability to process emotions, & an intense denial of fears that the intellect deems illogical.

People think automatically that when I say “cure for addiction” I mean they can successfully drink again.  No!  By cure I mean, we won’t want to drink again, no desire.  Also by cure I mean doing the work to define & find the emotional causes of the allergy and processing those emotional triggers.

People usually would rather call addiction a disease than to admit and face their own debilitating fear & pain.  Why?  Because to do that we must become emotionally vulnerable.  The Truth shall set you free.

Being “baffled” by anything isn’t a stance we should fight to stay in, is it? Dr. Gabor (video at end of page) says, “The heart of addiction is ALWAYS emotional loss.”(trauma, neglect, abuse).

Thing is children have no way of recognizing emotional abuse when it’s happening. The addict adult scarcely wants to process the real causes of his pain especially when its mommy or daddy they defend vehemently!  “I needed to be spanked or beaten it was for my own good.”

They have no clue what being violently treated does to a child’s self worth.  Or that their own heart is screaming out inside.

The real cure for addiction doesn’t poise addiction as being magically stronger than an emotional healing. By far the healing from addiction leaves one enlightened and seldom if ever wanting to avoid life and reality.

Make no mistake Spirituality is a cure to anything when applied. That’s not rocket science. So, what is the allergy? The allergy component in addiction is emotional pain, shame, and fear.

When the pain & hurt are cleared up there’s no reason to numb one’s self. If I am not in emotional pain my body won’t react to drugs with a sigh of relief. Again…this isn’t rocket science.

Some people feel the great relief when they do they dope.  And others just get high.  That is the deciding factor.  And who wouldn’t keep grabbing for their cure to intense fear and debilitating emotional pain?  My issue is this, its so simple like 1+1 why in the hell does the world label addiction baffling?

Because your also dealing with programming.  Once a person uses dope as a solution to pain for so many years it becomes habit, programming.  And its not at all easy to quit.  Even for those who have addressed their core issues of hurt, rejection, & being abused by those they trusted most.  Now they have to make something else habitual–the 12 steps and meetings.  But after seven years of meetings if a man does the work he should be able to put down the meetings,  (The meetings are the reprogramming) and just use the 12 steps as a behavioral guide from there on out.

I said the cure is spiritual and it is.  If a man doesn’t include prayer and meditation with positive daily affirmations of his own goodness he’s missing part of the cure.

But addicts will do anything to avoid seeing that their “pack” and childhood in most cases is what made them sick in the first place. Believe me I know the subconscious will to protect the pack. I know how to bury memories and avoid core feelings. The pack mentality stands guard to protect every addiction. False pride sits with it’s gun cocked and ready to shoot down any realizations of intense shame. The ego screams and shuts down any tears that form at the base of core emotional issues. “Out of the problem into the solution!” is only good advice when we are reveling in chaos, blame,

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See the 5 Worst Foods for your Waistline

Food companies could be destroying your health!

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Please Click the pic then click the play arrow in next page.  Video has a 3 second delay before start.

This video will tell you exactly what the worst foods are and what they do to us.  What is the chemical “High Fructose Corn Syrup”?  And how does our brain react to both preservatives and HFCS?

It’s no wonder our country is overweight.  This video tells how to beat a fat waistline and still eat yummy foods.

 

 

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“And a third of the waters were blood” (Revelation 16)

"And the second angel poured out his vial upon the sea; and it became as the blood of a dead man: and every living soul died in the sea."

CAN WE STOP ALL POLLUTION?  

IMPOSSIBLE.  BUT, BY GOD….CAN’T WE ISOLATE THE WORST OFFENDERS OF THE EARTH’S GLOBAL ABUSE AND STOP THE PROCESS NOW!

Let me spell out RED TIDE AND DEAD ZONES.  Pollutants knock the balance of the ocean’s ecosystem way off kilter.  Then hoards of UN-NATURAL algae grow on top of the ocean.  They quickly bloom AND THEN DIE.  With their death comes an array of negative effects which are all put to motion originally by oil drilling and man made fertilizers.  (organic fertilizers not near as bad http://iraj.in/up_proc/pdf/229-146417473466-71.pdf.)

I WAS JUST IN BRADENTON AND ANNA MARIA ISLAND (West coast of Florida)  The beach is uninhabitable.

Once again nitrogen oxides and other chemicals are destroying the oceans delicate balance.  Chemicals have destroyed the west coast beaches of Florida all the way from Tampa to Naples (see 2016 red tide map current status).The air or I should say “lack of air” on the beach is unbreathable…LITTLE OXYGEN in many spots.   You just can’t breath air that doesn’t contain oxygen.   Standing near the beach is like breathing pepper spray if you have ever experience that.  And believe you me it will get you sick if you stay down there for very long.

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Suffering from Addiction? You CAN RECOVER!

I Want Every Addict to Know,

addiction can be a thing of the past.  It doesn’t have to be a threat to us for evermore.  We don’t have to fear it crouching outside the rooms like some powerful beast cunning baffling powerful.  FEAR is not what the 12 steps teach us.

The reason people are always on the edge of relapse or fear they will is because they have not worked the twelve steps to the point of learning to live them.  If fear could keep us sober then we would have stayed sober along time ago of our own accord.  Because fear is one thing that most addicts are well versed in.

The second reason people don’t stay sober is because

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Silent Lucidity

Recovery is a place you learn to face your fears. Walk through the fear. But not only that express the fear in a healthy way if need be to better overcome it. Writing, sharing, crying, praying, are all healthy ways to relieve the very fear that is at the core of addiction.

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Wells Fargo is Being Hacked I Have Proof

I apologize to everyone that the proof I had mysteriously disappeared from my files so I deleted the webpage.  However if you have questions just email me at edgarlaura826@yahoo.com

I will say this.  Wells fargo posts to “pending transactions” first at which time the money is deducted from your balance.  Then once the authorization and transaction have been completed the “pending transaction” disappears and is placed just below in “posted transactions”.

The way I was being hacked was this; Once a legit charge of mine went from pending to posted it would then disappear from posted.  Then it would reappear in pending as a new charge and the process would start again.   The money would be deducted a second time.  The only difference was the date of the authorization had changed to 24 hrs later.  And the routing numbers which the money is sent to of course would go to the hackers.  So the only way to verify weather I was hacked or not is by the date and the routing numbers which only Wells Fargo has.  I feel I should have access to any banks routing numbers if I am sending them money.  I shouldn’t have to call Wells Fargo to verify that what says is “Wal-mart” is in fact a “Walmart” bank account.  Just because it says it’s Walmart doesn’t mean the money is actually being sent to a Wal-mart bank account.  This is a duplicate charge except the money goes to a different place.  I cannot believe Wells Fargo doesn’t have safe guards against sending money to an account that says “Walmart” yet is actually Joe Hacker.

I should add, this happened over and over.  I changed to a new W.F. account and it started again.  They were not hacking my online account because I can’t erase transactions and put new ones in.  Obviously they had full authority to move numbers around.  I should also say that W.F. did give me my money back every time I reported it.  But the thing is, it’s a hard thing to catch if you have allot of transactions rushing through your account.  What I do now is follow the money.  Every day I check my account and make copies of the activity.  That way if a completed transaction get’s erased I have proof.  And this was the proof I had that it was happening.  I don’t know what happened to the data.  And yes they used Wal-mart and several other debits that are common to my account.  But they made the mistake of taking money when I had very small balances.  They are brazen absolutely brazen  And highly intelligent.

For now W.F. has gotten them OUT of my account…but I am watching.

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Please Help with a Kitty Donation

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Sick Cat

Hello,
My name is Pumpkin-head. I have been the best friend of Rick M. for close to ten years.  Rick is on Social Security and he is looking for work. You see, he’s trying to save/extend my life. Two weeks ago I was diagnosed with kidney disease. There is no cure, and sadly it will eventually kill me.
There is a special diet and there are medicines that will make me comfortable and extend my life, but they are very expensive–especially for  a man on a fixed income. Last week he put $2000.00 on a credit card that he wonders how he will pay, but he worries more about me than the credit card bill.
Until I am off of the medicines (in 6 weeks), it is costing him close to a hundred dollars a week to keep me comfortable and happy. I don’t know how much longer he can keep it up–but I’m so thankful to him. I love him, and do not want to leave him. He loves me so much.
Anything you can do to help him and me will be greatly appreciated.
Love You,
Pumpkin-head
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